They skyped with the main speaker and her husband to help us get a vision for the conference and to find out the nuts and bolts. They are an absolutely lovable and adorable couple, who made it clear to me that they love the Lord and that it is going to be a wonderful Retreat!
But, as I sat there, and they began detailing how we could be involved, I did not feel any draw to get involved on a deeper level. I've been praying that God will make it clear to me what things He wants me to be involved with. I definitely feel a strong conviction to not commit to anything to the detriment of my family. With Andy's busyness right now, I feel like it's very important for me to be "present" at home, as often as possible.
This past year, God has really impressed it upon my heart to serve and minister where He has placed me. Whether it's a one time meeting with a mom at the park, or deepening friendships already developed, or looking for opportunities to serve in my already scheduled activities, I'm trying to remain open.
So in the car on the way home, I thought, "what stirs my soul?" Quickly, the Lord reminded me of a thought I had this summer as I was working on an on-line bible study. The idea was that I wanted to open my home to the other moms in our homeschool co-op to invite them to do this particular study with me. I thought about it for several weeks and was so excited! But then, life happened. Co-op started, Andy was continuing to travel, fall activities for the kids started, our building process became busier, and I just got tired. The thought of one more thing felt overwhelming.
But, as I was on the way home, and this thought was resurrected, my soul soared! There was excitement in my spirit. So when I walked in the door that night, before I changed or sat down, I began composing an e-mail with all of the details. I hit send before I had time to talk myself out of it, and to consider what else I have going on. I hit send because I knew with clarity that God was calling me to do this, and I desire to walk in obedience. I may not know all of the details of how it will work out, but I believe if I keep my eyes on Him, He will direct me, and I won't let my plans, desires, or words get in the way. :)
I wish I could put into words the excitement I have about doing this study. I can't wait to share, fellowship, and pray with these women that I am seeing weekly at Classical Conversations. These women that I care about.
What stirs your heart and soul? Whatever it is, I encourage you to take action. Don't let fear, or details, or feeling inadequate keep you from answering the call God has on your life. He wants to use each and every one of us to grow His Kingdom, and He will equip you. That's what I'm having faith in. :)
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